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I
dedicate this book to my Father, my Daddy!
Wyman Cage High
For all he wasn't, and all he was in my life!
A true testament of a hard worker, and soldier as well
a trooper! Gratitude for all you have represented and gave
to me and my children! Your tenacity, strong will. Showing me that one should
never sit back and be defeated! Through your trials & tribulations, you sustained and
stood your ground and never let anyone humiliate you! A fierce artistic talent
a great entrepreneur! You showed me that! I love you and I am forever grateful
for your love and support!
"Whose baby?"
"Daddy's 'baby."
"And what else?"
"And just can't help it!"
I love you Dad!!
Your Big Baby!
I would first and foremost thank the Creator for this gift! He created me so therefore I create! He receives all praises and honor! Without Him I am nothing! I have always been blessed no matter the situation or journey. I have always found favor in every trial and test!!!! Keeping me humble! Forever grace and mercy I have while on earth!
First, let me give an overwhelming gratitude to my daughters Amber Etoy High & Genesis Autumn High! They are my muse, my energy, my common sense and eye-openers of reason! In you two I dream, feel inspiration, love, compassion. You two are so many many things being a writer, I would write a book! I love you both to life!! My fanbase, my loyalist, my voices or reason. Even at times my cheerleaders and more than motivators! I am so humbled and blessed to have such wonderful women in my life!
To the son LaVonte BKA Chu Chu- Jonathon, that I will never ever have as if you were my own! You are my SUN and you know when it comes to you my heart that Aumpie loves you to lifetimes and back. You are there for me any and every time I need your creativity as an artist! I love you!!!! You know my heart!
Darran Keith Walton! So much I could say about our rapport. However, I want to say gratitude for being a ride or die through thick and thin! Our relationship has been tested in many fires and yet you are always battling my storms as if they are yours personally! Gratitude for believing in me and caring for me. Being there when there was no one else! I love you to life always through thick and thin!
To Kevin Eugee Wilson! I love you to life for all of the encouraging have my back inspiring talks and how you trust me to be me and push me to do and be me never judging! How you see and bring forth talents that I may not see to the forefront! I am so happy to have adopted you into my family and heart!
Shanita Witherspoon, you are my Judy! We have come aloooonnnng way!!!! The place and space that we share are wonderful! You have been there, inspired been about my marketing business building, marketing, goals, ideas, promotion and more!!! You have always been that backbone for me no matter what our paths were. Gratitude for your support! You are so Anne Frank! You give it to me raw rather I want it or not! I appreciate that so much! Don't stop being you!
I
thought long and hard. In those thoughts, I wanted to present the best of my work and compromise some of it in my next short story book.
The spirit, the soul, the mental & emotional
play a part in all of our lives! The experiences we have come from
went through and lived, rather it is bad, good or ugly!
How we get through it, our perception and how it
affects our well being.
For those who may not know my style of writing. I am a
non-factional writer. Which means, I write non-fiction, facts and
add non-fiction is a part of my writing!
All of my short stories are based on my experiences,
those whom I have met on my journey. Their stories
and of course some twist along the way.
This body of work speaks from so many places that all readers can relate to.
That all readers have either experienced themselves or others around them.
My Soul To Keep
is a plethora of short stories that embody the struggle we go through in
so many areas of our lives.
Each short story compelling, entertaining and filled with much passion
I
the storyteller takes you!
Toy High
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JUDGEMENT THRONE
SOUL FOOD
HOW HE LOVE ME
HIS TONGUE IS A TASTY TREAT
MISS ME...AND WHEN I AM GONE
SUSPECTS UNDER SUSPICION
MAD ABOUT IT!!!
MAD AT THE WORLD
WHEN LIFE IS DEATH AND DEATH IS LIFE
DEATH BECOMES ME
ALL AT THE SAME DAMN TIME
DRAMAVILLE
SCATTERED SCATARGORIES
FROM UNLOVED TO LOVED
I NEVER LISTENED
WHEN HELL AINT ENOUGH
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
I sat and watched the stars, thought about life on Pluto and even Mars. Thought many times of what it would be like to leave this earth and do me on another planet spectacularly! I've wondered if they judge and hate and throw shyt at you there like they do here.
Last time I checked, your life was yours and my life was mine. And the decisions you made any mistakes you fell into were the doing of you. And my doing because of choices. Yet you criticize me and make me feel as if you could have done it all so differently.
I have sat back and stared at the skies when they were pale blue and clouds fluffy and sparse floated in the sky. Wondering what was on Gods mind. Wondering if I could lull myself into a state so deep where it would be just me and him looking at all the souls on earth dwelling. For me to see how other's think and feel would be the Optimus!
Yet when I stand all alone from broken promises, broken-hearted and emotionally mentally drenched....you judge my character. You look at my mistakes and past lives as if I have committed some form of genocide in the world. You kick me to curbs and call cabs and ACT as I am the one with more issues than you.
I have entered many hells, and have lived right at the gates. Feeling as if life ended and began here for me. No love, only self-hate, only those bullying and picking on me. Those telling me what I can and cannot do. ME pushing to show you to be someone you may have never met ever in this lifetime. I have been at the unholy gates of hell ...knocking and feeling as if I to am lost as the souls that dwell there.
Yet my life is on display for so many...To peer..look...peep...see..and for some to pay close attention and yet those who are at the golden steps and allowed entry to see into my soul still defy me. Still, Judge me, still, want to bury me. Not feeling me I see, but that is not what you said two moons ago! My life has made half circles in the sand I will admit that. My life has come full circle in other capacities. My life has been up and down just like yours. I have shared experiences just as you have shared some with me. I have climbed up a ladder and down and at times had a fear of going up!
So I come to you not to be judged, to be handled improperly. Or to be downtrodden upon. I come allowing you to be you and for you to allow me to be me. Not spit on the very words I say and the life that I have lived. Can we? Can we just walk side by side and if possible hand in hand and not cast stones from the Judgement throne!
I sat and watched the stars, thought about life on Pluto and even Mars. Thought many times of what it would be like to leave this earth and do me on another planet spectacularly! I've wondered if they judge and hate and throw shyt at you there like they do here.
Last time I checked, your life was yours and my life was mine. And the decisions you made any mistakes you fell into were the doing of you. And my doing because of choices. Yet you criticize me and make me feel as if you could have done it all so differently.
I have sat back and stared at the skies when they were pale blue and clouds fluffy and sparse floated in the sky. Wondering what was on Gods mind. Wondering if I could lull myself into a state so deep where it would be just me and him looking at all the souls on earth dwelling. For me to see how other's think and feel would be the Optimus!
Yet when I stand all alone from broken promises, broken-hearted and emotionally mentally drenched....you judge my character. You look at my mistakes and past lives as if I have committed some form of genocide in the world. You kick me to curbs and call cabs and ACT as I am the one with more issues than you.
I have entered many hells, and have lived right at the gates. Feeling as if life ended and began here for me. No love, only self-hate, only those bullying and picking on me. Those telling me what I can and cannot do. ME pushing to show you to be someone you may have never met ever in this lifetime. I have been at the unholy gates of hell ...knocking and feeling as if I to am lost as the souls that dwell there.
Yet my life is on display for so many...To peer..look...peep...see..and for some to pay close attention and yet those who are at the golden steps and allowed entry to see into my soul still defy me. Still, Judge me, still, want to bury me. Not feeling me I see, but that is not what you said two moons ago! My life has made half circles in the sand I will admit that. My life has come full circle in other capacities. My life has been up and down just as yours. I have shared experiences just as you have shared some with me. I have climbed up a ladder and down and at times had a fear of going up!
So I come to you not to be judged, to be handled improperly. Or to be downtrodden upon. I come allowing you to be you and for you to allow me to be me. Not spit on the very words I say and the life that I have lived. Can we? Can we just walk side by side and if possible hand in hand and not cast stones from the Judgement throne!
IT IS THE ELDERLY, THE WISE, THOSE WHO HAVE SEEN AND BEEN THERE. THOSE ARE THE CHIEFS THAT SIT AMONG THE INDIANS. AND ALWAYS GIVE US ONE TO GROW ON.....LISTEN
Come on in, come on in. Woo! I'm sure glad you made it
hear safe. Come on, have a seat. Woo! I'm tired now. I just
finished cooking for everybody. As you can see, you the first one
here. What did I cook? Child, I made some good ole cabbage,
hot water cornbread, fried corn, potato salad, crispy fried
chicken, and a roast. And for dessert, I made a german chocolate
cake from scratch. And the peach cobbler is still in the oven.
And it is still hot in that kitchen.
Wait a minute, let me go pour us a glass of that fresh
lemonade I made. It sure is good. I was sipp'n on a little bit
while I was cook'n. Here you go. Here's a napkin for you. Let
me get a swig of mine. Mmmp, mmph, mmmph! That sure is
some good lemonade if I have to say so myself.
You look sad baby. You look stressed and worn. Like you got
a lot on your mind. You do huh? Yeah, well, it's this lifetime. It's
all in this lifetime. After while we won't see no pain. So what's on
your heart child? You say you just not happy? Stressed about
your husband. Well, baby, I ain't no therapist. And I ain't got no
degree in counseling. All I can give you is some solid wisdom.
Advice I have none of that. Cause everybody got an opinion. And
people can give you advice every day. But it's wisdom that stirs
up your soul. Like when someone telling the truth about thangs.
And it hit home to you. You can feel it in the pit of your stomach.
A smile might even come across your face. Cause you agree wit
what they say'n. Yeah, I have been there.
Life is full of trials and tribulations child. Plenty to last you this
lifetime. But the trick is getting through them. I know people say
it is easier said than done. But it's really not. You can do
whatever you put your mind to. And stress in this life will kill you.
I know, I have seen a lot of my family and friends to rest over it.
Oh, how they could sit and complain, and worry. Child you can't
keep worrying. If you can't fix it today. Eventually, it will get fixed. I
learned a long time ago. You can't walk around her wit your
head hung down low. Make your self-esteem fall at the waist
side. Can't do it. Gotta stay positive. Gotta keep your shoulders
high. Because it all passes. Don't it? Think about all the times
you went through, and how now it's nothing but a memory. You
got through it. And at the time you were going through your trials.
You didn't see no way out. I know, I have seen you there. And I been
there. Things got me down for a minute. But I would shake
myself real hard. Put a smile on my face, and get myself busy. It
didn't matter rather or not I thought about it throughout the day.
The fact of the matter was. I was gone keep a positive outlook
on it all.
See baby you can't let people take your energy. You can't give
them all your power. When you fuss and fight, and when you
argue. You let people know they have the control. It ain't hard to
walk away. We just make it hard. We want to keep pushing the
pain closer. Instead of just waiting it out. Letting sleeping dogs
lie. And when everything calms down. And the storm is over.
You sit and talk. You hash it out. You work through it.
Patience is a virtue in this lifetime child. And we sometimes
too pig-headed to realize that. And know that life is not going to
go our way. We can plan, and set goals. Sometimes a monkey
wrench named life comes in with some circumstances that
throw us off our path. But you pick yourself up. And you hop back
on. Pull and hold it by the reigns. Not too hard where you lose
focus on everything. You gotta learn to separate things in your
life. No, that work is work. And you leave it when you leave. And
that the people that are important in your life. You focus on them.
Your friends and family. They don't need to see you sad and
depressed all the time. You know what doesn't feel good to you.
And you know what's not right for you. But you gotta be the one to
put a stop to the things that are not good for you.
Now I'm not saying you gotta be so strong where you can talk to nobody. But nobody wants to hear someone play the same
record all the time. Misery loves company, and company will sit
with you if they are miserable too. Can't never get nowhere in life
if you always walking around sad and upset. A smile feels better
than a frown. And I know that when you go through things, the
world don't stop moving on its axis. The sun don't stop shining.
That's why we keep on moving. That's why we continue to focus
on the good in our lives. No matter what the situation is. And no
matter how bad we think we doing. Some people ain't got what
we have. And that's not to mean that we take glory in the bad
situations someone else is going through either.
It seems like so much don't it? I know, but child life can be so
sweet. Life can be one big adventure after another. I'm telling
you. Some people can never come up out of the water to see
that. To know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You
can your mind and body what you want it to do. Even get
healthy, I have seen it.
Now I have found a lot of these things true. And a wise man
learns from another fools mistakes. You have to go through nothing bad
. Especially if you have seen a friend or loved one
go through it. And you don't want to burn any bridges. Is best to
walk away as a friend. Then to make enemies. You can keep
friends for a long time if you don't stay up in they face all the
time. Cause you'll be staying out of the business. And seldom
visits, well they make longer friendships.
I hope all this is feeding your soul. I really do I know you all
like when I cook and feed your bellies. And the food is good to
you. But good and honest wisdom feeds your soul. And it always
will. Good old wisdom and encouragement keep you on a
positive road. Picks you up, let's you know you can make it. And
when the storm passes. And believe me, child, it can't rain
every day. It's gotta be some sun. And so is the way in our lives.
The sun has to shine.
Look at me, I just been talking. Running my mouth. But it was
a good conversation. Inspiration. Thank you, baby, for listening.
You always were a good listener. What was that? You are so
sweet. I am glad I could help. I love you too. Now help me set
this table. Everybody will be here in a while. And I want to have
all this soul food waiting for them. I want everybody to be nice
and full.
I see him, naw...I see you!... Damn, I see him, watch him, feel him. His pheromones are deep implemented in my daily supplement. He is a god of a species that made way back in the day. A true soldier, a real gentleman. A knight in shining armor...he is the one for me...and he pushes me to “say yes”
He is charming, his smile dazzles me in areas that only other men could dream or even think of! Ahhhh the pure bliss when we kiss and are high on cloud 9! The way his lips taste, dance, intertwine with music they play on contemporary jazz stations that put you in the mood. We inhale, engulf, pull each other's air! Now it is spiritual...what we do...when we do. We share.... shyt...
He pushes, probe, takes, gives, receives... I think he is trying to have me in his lair permanently. Can you describe delicious and wonderful super fantastic in a sentence and keep it running on the sheer magnificence of this “dark” god? I laugh and chuckle to myself figuring it all out. Humph....damn...
He spoils the spoils with gift-giving, love, smiles the art of being an OG! I have long waited, he wants me out here fighting in these streets! This is how he loves me... Looking for his beautiful dark fit frame in the daylight; in a helicopter with a searchlight! How did I get here?..... exhaling...
My heart imparts, he has parted the seas, felt the goodness of my love and the wilds of my thoughts. He is a future I don't want to end. The passion of two charismatic people giving and taking. Debating and mating...passion...spicy, Caliente we give it our heart-est. He got me open like Moses when he parted the Red Seas...exactly where he wants me! Damn...
The love and passion we share like thunderstorms in Georgia with orange blue dark clouded skies. We move mountains oceans and seas just on the sheer magnificence of we...of us...of he and I. Dig that...My man and me...loving each other..or is it how he loves me?...
I see him, naw...I see you!... Damn, I see him, watch him, feel him. His pheromones are deep implemented in my daily supplement. He is a god of a species that made way back in the day. A true soldier, a real gentleman. A knight in shining armor...he is the one for me...and he pushes me to “say yes”
He is charming, his smile dazzles me in areas that only other men could dream or even think of! Ahhhh the pure bliss when we kiss and are high on cloud 9! The way his lips taste, dance, intertwine with music they play on contemporary jazz stations that put you in the mood. We inhale, engulf, pull each other's air! Now it is spiritual...what we do...when we do. We share.... shyt...
He pushes, probe, takes, gives, receives... I think he is trying to have me in his lair permanently. Can you describe delicious and wonderful super fantastic in a sentence and keep it running on the sheer magnificence of this “dark” god? I laugh and chuckle to myself figuring it all out. Humph....damn...
He spoils the spoils with gift-giving, love, smiles the art of being an OG! I have long waited, he wants me out here fighting in these streets! This is how he loves me... Looking for his beautiful dark fit frame in the daylight; in a helicopter with a searchlight! How did I get here?..... exhaling...
My heart imparts, he has parted the seas, felt the goodness of my love and the wilds of my thoughts. He is a future I don't want to end. The passion of two charismatic people giving and taking. Debating and mating...passion...spicy, Caliente we give it our heart-est. He got me open like Moses when he parted the Red Seas...exactly where he wants me! Damn...
The love and passion we share like thunderstorms in Georgia with red-orange blue dark clouded skies. We move mountains oceans and seas just on the sheer magnificence of we...of us...of he and I. Dig that...My man and me...loving each other..or is it how he loves me?...
I see him, naw...I see you!... Damn, I see him, watch him, feel him. His pheromones are deep implemented in my daily supplement. He is a god of a species that made way back in the day. A true soldier, a real gentleman. A knight in shining armor...he is the one for me...and he pushes me to “say yes”
He is charming, his smile dazzles me in areas that only other men could dream or even think of! Ahhhh the pure bliss when we kiss and are high on cloud 9! The way his lips taste, dance, intertwine with music they play on contemporary jazz stations that put you in the mood. We inhale, engulf, pull each other's air! Now it is spiritual...what we do...when we do. We share.... shyt...
He pushes, probe, takes, gives, receives... I think he is trying to have me in his lair permanently. Can you describe delicious and wonderful super fantastic in a sentence and keep it running on the sheer magnificence of this “dark” god? I laugh and chuckle to myself figuring it all out. Humph....damn...
He spoils the spoils with gift-giving, love, smiles the art of being an OG! I have long waited, he wants me out here fighting in these streets! This is how he loves me... Looking for his beautiful dark fit frame in the daylight; in a helicopter with a searchlight! How did I get here?..... exhaling...
My heart imparts, he has parted the seas, felt the goodness of my love and the wilds of my thoughts. He is a future I don't want to end. The passion of two charismatic people giving and taking. Debating and mating...passion...spicy, Caliente we give it our heart-est. He got me open like Moses when he parted the Red Seas...exactly where he wants me! Damn...
The love and passion we share like thunderstorms in Georgia with red-orange blue dark clouded skies. We move mountains oceans and seas just on the sheer magnificence of we...of us...of he and I. Dig that...My man and me...loving each other..or is it how he loves me?...
I see him, naw...I see you!... Damn, I see him, watch him, feel him. His pheromones are deep implemented in my daily supplement. He is a god of a species that made way back in the day. A true soldier, a real gentleman. A knight in shining armor...he is the one for me...and he pushes me to “say yes”
He is charming, his smile dazzles me in areas that only other men could dream or even think of! Ahhhh the pure bliss when we kiss and are high on cloud 9! The way his lips taste, dance, intertwine with music they play on contemporary jazz stations that put you in the mood. We inhale, engulf, pull each other's air! Now it is spiritual...what we do...when we do. We share.... shyt...
He pushes, probe, takes, gives, receives... I think he is trying to have me in his lair permanently. Can you describe delicious and wonderful super fantastic in a sentence and keep it running on the sheer magnificence of this “dark” god? I laugh and chuckle to myself figuring it all out. Humph....damn...
He spoils the spoils with gift-giving, love, smiles the art of being an OG! I have long waited, he wants me out here fighting in these streets! This is how he loves me... Looking for his beautiful dark fit frame in the daylight; in a helicopter with a searchlight! How did I get here?..... exhaling...
My heart imparts, he has parted the seas, felt the goodness of my love and the wilds of my thoughts. He is a future I don't want to end. The passion of two charismatic people giving and taking. Debating and mating...passion...spicy, Caliente we give it our heart-est. He got me open like Moses when he parted the Red Seas...exactly where he wants me! Damn...
The love and passion we share like thunderstorms in Georgia with red-orange blue dark clouded skies. We move mountains oceans and seas just on the sheer magnificence of we...of us...of he and I. Dig that...My man and me...loving each other..or is it how he loves me?...